huh...
this has been a..this past year has been difficult.
my mother passed away.
jesus. i miss her
i have fortunately been thinking a lot about death lately. not sure if its an effect of the death of my mother or from turning 40 years old. what is it about this damn number? why is it so damn stark? God I need to get this fear out my mind. I keep thinking i need to make sure i leave my kids financially secure. well what about leaving them the tools to be happy? ....that's always what i have wanted...love..is it possible? i need to be the ultimate person that i can be, share that and spread that, epigeneticize that
lol, well, 2013 was a tough year, but logically suffering brings on intelligence; wisdom. well 2014, if God wills it, will be a year of planning, building, and settling. i am very optimistic about me, my family, and our prospects. the sun is shining and i am enjoying its rays.
so far this year- promotion to vice chief of department, increase in income, plans to build a house, plans to vacation to rome, plans to go to the beach (was thinking miami, but probably the cape, miami will have to wait till next year)
goals for this year- optimism, prosperity, change
